Patricia Ossowski: (not so) bitter blog

So it here it is: someone has guessed my age to be in the ball park of my age. How did this happen? I’ve even colored my hair recently. And I thought I was looking pretty good last night….
It was asked or
guessed or
ventured in the context of aging artists, or artists of a certain age.
Like: Rah! Rah! We (being older artists) need to show the world that we can be more prolific as we age, not just fade away.
As an artist I haven’t even blossomed yet, so it is not time for me to fade away…
But looking into a mirror has become an interesting experience. I kind of recognize myself. I see the confusion and distraction and think: yep, that’s me, but I look very different.
Or maybe I’m looking differently.
Got some wrinkles, things are falling, the baby fat is long, long gone…and surprise! I feel comfortable with what I see. I am interesting looking; got some character. Some miles, some distance, some depth.
To quote Lily Allen, www.lilyallenmusic.com “everything is cool [...]

So here is a theory. And its just a theory. Nobody can truly claim to have the answer or even be an authority on creativity. Some people have been visibly successful and they can spout off all kinds of rules and tell you what’s wrong with other people’s stuff, but really, there are no rules and there’s nothing wrong with anyone’s stuff.
In a sense I have been successful. I have managed to write numerous songs, get them recorded, play them to audiences, win awards, get laughed at, get applause, have people cry, have people walk out.
You name it, I’ve had it. So maybe I can join the ranks of authorities spouting theory and rightness and wrongness.
Perhaps it is passion that lends me some credibility. There is no doubt that great songs have inspired more in my life than anything else. That passion has led me to spend countless hours learning to play the piano and sing; it has motivated me to overcome intense shyness and fear to get on stage and perform even after miserable, incredible [...]

This is the noisiest apartment I have ever lived in. This is particularly profound because I lived in NYC for 18 years. Once I lived just shy of the corner of 70th St and Broadway: very busy area, window on the street on the 12th floor. They even tore the building down across the street and built a new apartment complex while I was living there. Still, this is the noisiest apartment I have ever lived in. I will not be living here for very much longer…

how great to be emerging from my bitter self into a bigger self.
it's about time!
patience and PERSISTENCE pays
Anna Banana's set this past Monday was "the most solid show" I have ever had, according to Mark, who is not one to offer inflated praise at any time. It has been documented on my flip and maybe I will post some clips soon.